I originally told myself I was going to live in Charleston until August, and if I still didn't have a job I would pray about moving back to Wisconsin. I knew God wanted me down here, but I was never sure whether it was something temporary or permanent. Ever since I moved here God has continually opened doors to keep me comfortable and trusting that this is where I'm supposed to be. I found a place to live, great groups of friends, and the doors to job opportunities, although they have all closed, were opened to give me faith that being down here was exactly where I was supposed to be.
I recently had two separate job opportunities get back to me and tell me that they'll "keep me in mind for future opportunities." It was honestly really discouraging. I know a lot of people look at me and value the huge steps of faith I've taken due to my trust in the Lord. It's hard for me to admit that I was discouraged, but I was so convinced that God was finally going to award my patience that I had already started planning my future around jobs that I hadn't been offered yet. The reason I posted about Lecrae a couple days ago is because it wasn't until I started listening to the truth in his music that I put the discouragement behind me. God is good, and if I continue to be patient, I know that He'll provide for my needs. I need to continually remind myself that things aren't going to come together in my own time, but that everything will come together exactly when God intends on it coming together. I just need to continue "staring at the back of the Hulk". (From Adventure in the Lowcountry).
So, I'm at a point now where I still don't have a job. I've had a lot of discussions with people about waiting tables or taking a part-time job until I can find something full-time in my field. The situation right now is that I have some money to hold me over for a little while, so it's not the biggest problem financially, but I only have health insurance under my parents for another few months, and as a diabetic health insurance is something that is necessary for me. I really need a full-time job that I can support myself with, and that also offers the benefits I need to maintain my health.
I've considered getting a job in order to make sure that I remain in the right spot financially, but I haven't felt that God is calling me to possibly sacrifice ministry opportunities to do that quite yet. I have recently gotten to a point in the relationships that I've made over the summer where God is coming out in conversation fairly regularly. I know God is moving in some of their lives. I also have been spending a lot of time walking around on the street hoping to come across some homeless people to bless with time and food. I want to continue having the time to put into these people until God calls me to find a job.
I almost feel like I'm back at square one. I'm once again at a point where I don't have any job opportunities that I'm waiting to hear back from, and once again I'm in need of a place to live. Fortunately, God has reminded me of the many relationships I've formed and the potential that can come from such a large network. One of my friends is currently praying about possibly moving down here to live with me and do ministry together. I think it would be great for both of us, spiritually and financially, but we're waiting for the Lord to say "move". Having someone else here with me would make it much easier to find a place to live, and it would definitely bless me with someone to conquer the temptations of life together.
I got worried for a little while, but I still have insurance for a few months! So many opportunities have come and gone in the last two months, so there is plenty of time for something great to happen. I know God is using me here, so there is no way I'm leaving unless He tells me that there is somewhere else in greater need. I've felt since I moved down here that God was going to supply for my needs through networking, so I will continue to meet people every day, letting my light shine into their lives.
PRAYER REQUESTS
Please pray that I would continue to trust in the Lord and be patient in His timing. I know that He wants me here, and that makes me confident in knowing that He will provide for my needs. I just need to be patient. Pray that I wouldn't act in a way that causes people to question who I am in the Lord. As far as I know this has not happened, but please pray for any conviction that needs to happen and against any misunderstanding.
Continue to pray that I would be able to find a job, and now a place to live, preferably a place that I could use to serve the community around me. (Read My Dream for more information on where my heart is in finding a place).
Also, pray that my friend would be led to go where the Lord wants him to be. It would be awesome to spend time living with an awesome brother, but it's something that God and him need to determine.
Thank you for continuing to read and pray. I love you all!
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